Being Fat is my disability

First off, wow. It's been about two weeks since I've posted at all. What a slacker I am!

So my husband & I went to Banff this weekend for some alone time and sight seeing. All in all we had a good trip. But there were a few instances when I was like “It sucks to be overweight”. And I know that some of you are thinking “Duh” and “Okay so do something about it”.

First off I have certainly tried to have a healthier lifestyle and it is pretty difficult to create and maintain good eating and exercise habits when you have been practicing the bad ones for so long. And if some of you “skinny” peeps are getting on your high horse I have few questions for you:

Do you smoke?
When was the last time you hit a gym?
Do you eat balanced meals all the time or can your skinniness be attributed to a good metabolism?

So anyway that’s not the point of my blog. Please read on.

So my first negative experience with being fat in Banff was when we went for a horseback ride. I had to get on the horse for one…no easy feat to swing your leg around when you are less than flexible. Then the whole 2 hour horse ride I found myself questioning if my weight was crushing the horse, and clenching my muscles in fear of falling off or being thrown off the horse. Towards the end of the ride I started thinking about how I was going to have to get off this horse.

Banff is a place for fit people. There are beautiful trails for hiking, mountains to climb, etc. When we went up the gondola there were tons of sculpted, tanned people who just finished climbing the mountain hanging around. I couldn't help but stare at them and wish that I hadn't screwed up my physcially self so much. Just climbing up a baby hill or stairs makes me out of breath and I feel so, subhuman.

That night we went to the hot springs. Being in a bathing suit is always traumatic but it's especially so when there are woman all around you in great shape. It's even worse when you see Mom's who have young babies or toddlers who have already sprung back to their tonned bods.

The next day we had a spa day. The lady directed us to the change rooms and asked us to change into the bathrobes provided. Suprise they only come in one size. It's an XL and it's too small...unless I want to flash my boobs & crotch for all to see. So that's upsetting. Then for my wrap the lady used some very small towels to cover my naughty bits. At one point I'm sure she had a not-so-nice view of my butt cheeks.

So I came home feeling not so great about my shape. Pretty depressed about it actually. So I'm going to try to get back on my swimming regime. And hopefully my new business venture will keep me busy and now that it's summer there isn't much good TV on so there isn't that to thwart me.

I am Annoyed

I am annoyed when I have to do my job twice because someone else couldn't do their job once.

I am annoyed when I have to photocopy anything, but especially when it's multiple sheets of paper, as our photocopier sucks.

I am annoyed when I have to make copies of things (killing trees) or keep paper around (cluttering the office) "just in case" (e.g. duplicate copies of timesheets from 1999).

I am annoyed when I have to numerically organize a BAZILLION sheets of papers that are currently in a random order.

I am annoyed when my bosses hand me a project that should take a few days and tell me they needed it yesterday.

I am annoyed when each of my three bosses each thinks I should drop whatever I am doing (hey even facebook) to answer to their beck and call.

I am annoyed when I have to take minutes of 10 catty women who go off on irrelevant tangents and debate anal things such as the use of "is" vs "are".

I am annoyed when my one boss lady insists on printing ever stinking email, paper, etc onto the inkjet (versus the lazer) and then loses the papers so has to print them again.

Hmmm...

it's been a while. I blame facebook...among other things.

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So on Saturday I was trying to get tickets to see Justin Timberlake in Edmonton. He's only doing one show in Alberta so the following does make some sense:

I was logged on to the appropriate website at 9:30am (tickets went on sale at 10am) with plenty of time to putz around. At about 9:57am I started hitting the refresh button waiting for the drop down menus to appear so I could request my tickets. It was 10:02am. I punched in that I need 6 tickets, "best available" and submit....no tickets available. So I typed in 3 tickets, "best available" and submit...no tickets available. So I typed in 2 tickets, "best available" and submit (getting worried now)...no tickets available. Panicked I type in 1 ticket...no tickets available. The concert was sold out already? They've only been on sale for like 3 minutes! So I try calling ticketmaster to see if there was some mistake, busy signal. So I keep trying on the computer while re-dialing the number. Eventually I decide to call Kelsey and break the news that we may have missed out on tickets. All the while still trying, typing in different amounts of tickets, hoping something will come up. A single ticket comes up: Kelsey & I are like, well it's no fun by yourself right? So I hang up with Kelsey but decide to keep trying. I go to call ticketmaster again (genuisly hitting re-dial) and I got 2 tickets! And ended up calling Kelsey again because that's the last number I dialled not ticketmaster. So I bought the two, told Kelsey she got to be the lucky person to accommpany me (as she was the first to say she wanted to go) and kept looking. No other tickets came up for the next half hour, or the numerous random attempts I've made since.

So my beef is that it's impossible to call in for tickets because the lines are uber busy. I refuse to go to the ticketmaster because they give you a random number for your place in line instead of first come first serve (happened to me at my first BEP concert) and in reality the tickets may sell out in minutes so how many people in line can you really serve? So the only real option is on-line where obviously everyone else goes too. So by the time my computer even showed me being able to pick tickets they were gone. How crazy is that?

Meanwhile I am torturing myself again this week by going for Nickelback tickets! I'm excited as I had such a great time the last time I saw them. Last time I really just went cuz my sister was a big fan & I bought her and I tickets for the show. I myself wasn't really a fan, in fact some of the songs annoyed me. Well the energy from the show was so fantastic that now they are in my top 5 fave bands on my iPod. The power of a concert eh? And I also think Chad is uber hot now.